The road to insanity

Are people required to have anything to say in order to maintain their blog?
My mind seems to be a mass of confusion and feelings, that I am unable to sift through, and truth be told I'm tiring myself out trying to.
I have discovered that writing helps me make sense of the jumble, take it apart and basically just figure things out.
Inevitably, it all comes back to my impending departure from the city that I always swore I would never leave, the boy I swore I would love forever, a sister I swore I would never get along with and friends I swore would always be there..
And yet, here I am, making a move that changes everything..
While this seems to be right, change I suppose doesn't come easy to anyone.. well, definitely not me at least. But if there's one thing that I learnt from my mother, its that you have to change, you have to adapt, else you become obsolete. Something tells me she meant that for when I turn 40, but I can be a slow learner, so I figure the earlier I start the better.
So Im changing the game plan.
And I know that while I'll be taking a truckload of amazing memories with some truly amazing people with me, I'll be moving on to bigger and better things.. I hope.
But dear god, I hate change. Even change of my own making.