A little bit of this and that...

I decided I needed to take a break from my blog for a while again, not because I'm losing interest in sharing about my life, but because I realized that there are somethings that I don't feel like sharing. It appears that while I have no problem talking to the world in general about my sex life, and even the more personal, intimate aspects of my (usually nonexistent) love life, I completely balk at the prospect of admitting to something I find humiliating.

For those of you who haven't really been keeping up with my life (you bastards), I've been granted admission to Symbiosis University in Pune for their Media and Communications course..(you may applaud if you wish). Of course, nothing in life comes easy right? So after having struggled with the entrance test, group exercise and the personal interview, when I thought it would all be smooth sailing from there, they floored me with the obscene cost factor.

But that aside, the reason I've been pretty much under the radar the last few weeks is because I feel an obligation to my readers to write about everything that's happening in my life.. and that includes an accounting of the night I got disgustingly drunk at my own celebration over symbiosis and proceeded to unleash my theatrical side complete with tears and upset on a captive audience... it was not well received..:)

So ever since then I've been putting off the idea of writing anything here, because truth be told, that's a night I would much rather forget

To be honest though, even beyond being embarrassed about that night, I've been chickening out of writing anything further because I've realized there are some things I want to keep private. Particularly, whatever this is with the current gentleman in my life. It appears that this is one time where there really are too many cooks spoiling the broth.. and more important than that, they're making me lose my mind!

I think the fact of the matter is that I find myself completely spiraling off course the more I talk about it.. every one has an opinion, every one has their two cents, all of which differ from what I have to say! Is it any wonder I was so confused?! But now I've decided that I'm not an idiot, and I know what I want and what's best for me, so enough with the talking! Don't get me wrong, I'm all for the girl talk and the gossiping and the sharing, but it just turns out that this is not one of those times. Not surprisingly though, some of the best advice I received was from guys.. In a nutshell it all pretty much boiled down to 'relax'.. which I did. After having cut out all the talking and obsessing, I'm finally left with only my voice in my head once more.. oh peace, blissful peace..:)

So that's where it's at, and that's where I'm at.. and that in all honesty is why I have been callously ignoring you and my blog the last few weeks.. But in my defense I have been waiting for something stupendously interesting to talk to you all about... which reading back on this post has obviously not happened yet... so well, my apologies..:)