Here's to having faith

With my relationship having gone up in smoke, I've spent the last few weeks concentrating on class, friends and the like. It's been good, and I've been trying to teach myself to stop leaning towards finding someone new.

Since my break up with what could be the great love of my life two years ago, I've drfted from one short, meaningless relationship to the next trying to replicate the love and companionship that I had previously shared. I've been told that what I had with this man is the real thing, and that he is my 'eternal'. Sometimes I'm tempted to think the same. It seems like the kind of thing that would last forever. Unfortunately we just ran out of fizzle.

Seems like a rather frivolous reason to send the relationship down the toilet doesn't it? But both of us being immensely physical people, this situation just didn't seem feasible anymore. Don't get me wrong, we did think it over several times. Every few months to be precise. After all, how could two people who obviously love each other like crazy not date just because there's no spark?? That kind of thing can be worked on, right?.. Wrong. Trust me, we tried. And eventually we started to do too much damage to how we see each other even out of the bedroom. And it shouldn't have to be so hard. So finally, one say we said enough. That we will never try to make this work again.. And that's the story of how the love of my life became my best friend.

Unfortunately that brings me to where I am today. With a history of trying to fill the gap. It seems difficult for me to believe that I will find someone who I can connect with the way I did with my ex boyfriend, but I have to believe that there is someone like that out there and when I'm older and wiser I'll find him and we'll live happily ever after.. Otherwise, I'm screwed.