In My Day....

Have you ever noticed that whenever you a decision to do something, sticking to it suddenly becomes a herculean task?
And it doesn't matter what it's about.. at least for me it doesn't.
The minute I decide to quit smoking, all I can think about is lighting up.
The minute I decide to cut back on my lifestyle, everyone wants to party.
The minute I step onto quiet-town-cochin soil, all I want to do is go nuts.

It's the strangest thing. I mean, who comes to COCHIN and wants to party???
I can imagine everyone scratching their heads right about now saying 'who knew you could party in Cochin'

But the point is, I don't know why it's so very difficult to just stick to my guns and stick to my decisions. I tell you, I do start out the night with the very best intentions. The plan is to have a good time, and come home at a fairly respectable time. I'm happy, Dad's happy.. No harm, No foul... Then the shit hits the ceiling.

Someone I respect a great deal once told me that he sees so much of potential in me, and sees me throwing it all away to have a good time..I think he may have a point, but I also don't know if he is completely justified in that thought.
I have this image in my head of who I want to be - I see this strong, intelligent woman, with a career and a life that doesn't permit me to be the last one at the party.. because face it, most of us don't drink till the crack of dawn, and stay out partying all night because we're so hooked to the booze.. It's because we're restless. We have nothing holding us down - we have no life.
I mean, here we are, twenty something, most of us on career paths that we don't believe in..bored and restless..We're footloose and fancy-free.. (and it really does get a little tedious after a while).
I know someone out there is saying 'youth is wasted on the young'.. but then I have to ask - we work, we earn money, we build our career AND we go out and have a good time..what else are we supposed to do???

What is so funny about our generation is that we really can do it all. We can work till ten at night and party till three in the morning and be back at work the next day at nine. It's really not that difficult. I'll admit, none of us probably have any savings, but if we do cut back on life, what do we do???? In this generation there is absolutely nothing worse than being bored!
Our whole world, all our technology, all our knowledge seems to be primed towards one common goal of alleviating boredom.
So how do we, a pampered spoilt generation exist in a world based on the previous generations ideals. I admit, there is much to be gained by doing so. But knowing this and incorporating this are two points that never seem to meet.