Preparing to launch

"You know what’s weird? Day by day, nothing seems to change, but pretty soon, everything’s different"... I found this on a friends Facebook wall, and I was intrigued by the statement.

I have done nothing but spend the last few months in Bangalore cribbing about how nothing changes, and each day just drifts into the next. And now suddenly, here I am on the precipice of change, and I find it daunting to say the least.

Looking back on the last few weeks, I wasn't terribly excited about the idea of going to Symbiosis.. In fact, I was quite ambivalent about the whole thing. I had hardly given it more than a second thought. And yet, suddenly, here I am, on the last week of my job and suddenly everything is going to start moving so fast!

I have six days to quit, barely a few days to get reoriented, then I shoot off to Goa, followed by Cochin, and I come back to Bangalore with barely enough time to pack, say my goodbyes and leave for Pune. Aaah!

Now I know this is a good thing because I am ready to leave Bangalore and I think it's been adequately established that Bangalore is definitely not the place for me, but still..... i HATE change!.. it's so ugh!....

Alright, so this is not going to be my most eloquent post... But you'll forgive me I'm sure, as I'm indulging in a moment of personal trauma.

I find myself watching my suitcase above the cupboard like it's a time bomb and the day I pull it down and dust it off, is the day the clock starts ticking... Not a pleasant feeling I assure you. However, soon the moment passes and my apprehension is replaced by an almost manic sense of buoyancy at the prospect of moving on to the next stage of my life.. Really, throw some hot flashes in with these mood swings, and I think I'll be ready for early menopause!

But reading back on this post, and all things considered... and my usual mental stability taken into account, I think I'm in a good place.. don't you think? :)